What does you
conscience say? You
shall become the person you are.
Catharsis
Catharsis
This
is still my catharsis. The routine I need to stick to day in day out, to gain a
sense of perspective and practice the basics of my art so that I may excel in
it. During the last
peak,
when I was addicted to sitting here, I churned out some not bad stuff. Here can
I write what I want, when I want, so that I may go on and write what I need to
write. Without this I soon sink into lethargy and lack of confidence. It does
matter what I write here, whether it is inane and shit. This is the foundation
from which I can build a career. Nothing is disallowed (double negative, I hate
it when that happens).
Was
talking to a friend about positive role models, and the lack of, last night. I
told her that I wanted to be my own role model. This is true. Whereas I find
many writers and musicians appealing, none of them attract me wholeheartedly. Back
to the Eponymist ideal again. The idea of individuality (Christ being the only
Christian). I can take pointers from people, but ultimately I stand alone. I
don’t believe in nationality or religion or race. At best, any social group is
a loose conglomeration. At best, unified through one or two ideals. Which is
fine. Society could not operate without community spirit. However, one of the
reasons for the breakdown of society in the west is a realisation that these
ideals have become transparent. Immigration and the global ideal are partly to
blame. The world has moved forward so fast that our narrow perceptions have not
been able to shift with it. Acclimatise to it. Our perceptions need to be
refocused. Religion and the family unit used to provide the bedrock, but they
have slowly been eroded. The downfall of at least one these is due to it being
based on erroneous assumptions, dressed up as truth. Can you guess which one?
We
have to become fluid. To be able to shift our allegiances according to the
situation. There are times when I am affected by national boundaries. Football,
I mean. In fact, sport is almost the only time when most of us feel a strong
pull from nationality (or it should be). I envisage a future where there are no
longer any nations. A persons country will be made up only of the places that
they have been to. Not an phoney affinity with people they have never met or
place they have never seen. My nation is Liverpool and Cardiff. Madrid and
Paris. Amsterdam and Bruges. I want to live in a world where in one regard a
person maybe my opponent, yet in another they will be my contemporary. As a
writer, I consider Hemmingway fascinating, but as a man I doubt we would have
much in common. He writes with a passion for his subject, but I have little
desire to experience bull fighting or fishing. This is what we should all be
moving towards.
I
believe that the purpose of the universe is to achieve infinity. The best way
for it to do that is by generating as many possibilities as possible, thereby
increasing the chances of it happening. Infinity is the point at which all
possibilities have been played out. Now, if this is true, then life on this
planet should be diversifying in as many ways as it can. Originality is the key.
Certain well meaning types will tell you that there is nothing original. That
may be true. But there is always a new spin to an old idea. A unique rendering
of prevalent influences. This is the code to which I hope to stay true. A fresh
form injected writing machine. All artistic disciplines should be in a
continued state of growth. That is why I hate popular culture so much. The
continued re-rendering and re-hashing of the same ideas over and over again. The
law of diminishing returns. These are possibilities being played out it is
true, but when so much time seems to be spent on producing works of dubious
artistic value, it is hard to see where our next evolutionary step is to come
from. Stagnation abounds and I think this is its one objective. I am a big
admirer of the Bard, but the comedy in his plays is simply not very funny. Comedy
has moved on in leaps and bounds in the last four hundred years (Python, Bill
Hicks, Spaced), just as it should.
Anarchy.
The more and more I think about anarchy, the more I read, the more I come to
the conclusion that we are all of us, for the most part, anarchists. The basic
tenet of anarchism is this: Do whatever you want to do, so long as it does not
interfere with anyone else. This is one of the principles I try to abide by: Do
what you want but do no harm. Something I’ve not always followed as closely as
I should. Now, is this not what we do every day of our lives. We may go to
work, but no one forces is us. We do it through our own volition. Okay, so we
do it to get paid, but it may be said that there is a contract between employee
and employer. A symbiotic relationship. One cannot survive without the other. We
get married, have children, but then there is merely a refocusing of our anarchic
principles. Our family becomes us and the family may do what it wants, as long
as it does no harm (including to itself).
The
problem with a large part of the anarchist movement, as I see it, is that they
only hear the first part. “What, do what I want? Cool! See ya.” “Hang on,
there’s more…Oh fuck it.” But isn’t that always the way with ideologies? They
get distorted and perverted for personal gain, until they bear little relation
to the original idea (cf. the major religions of the world)! The problem with
the anarchist movement is that it seeks to politicise what is in essence a
personal philosophy. Anarchism is a lifestyle choice. As soon as you try to
mould it into a movement it ceases to be anarchy. Buddhism is very close to
anarchism. It is essentially about meditation. When you pervert it into
religion it ceases to be Buddhism. There’s a great line in the film ‘Dogma’. All
about how humans have missed the essential point of religion. It isn’t about
religion, its about ideas. “Ideas can be changed. Religion is what gets people
killed.”
I
do not seek to enforce any idea upon my fellow man, except one. Be yourself. Be
the person that you are. What does you
conscience say? asks Nietzsche. You
shall become the person you are. Be your own religion. Your own ideal. Your
own political party; your own role model. Be your own trail blazing its way
toward the horizon. And if any other line happens to intersect yours, well then
that’s just a happy coincidence. A bonus. I think Henry Miller put it best:
…you
won’t be dead, you won’t be indifferent, you won’t be insensitive, you won’t be
alarmed and panicky, you won’t be jittery, you won’t throw rotten eggs because
you don’t understand. You will want to understand everything, even the
disagreeable things. You will want to accept more and more – even what seems
hostile, evil, threatening. Yes, you will become more and more like God. You
won’t have to answer and advertisement in the newspaper in order to find out
how to talk with God, God will be with you all the time. And if I know what I’m
talking about, you will listen more and talk less.
Okay,
that’s enough cultural referencing for the moment. I am your sheep herder, kneel before me. Quiet!
Get it done.
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